I don't feel right if I'm not a part of a conversation going on in a room I'm in.
Intrusive thoughts pop in and out of my head, with me left powerless to them.
I'm not just sad, it goes deeper than that.
I'm scared of all these people, yet I'm also scared of being alone.
Living with one mental illness is hard enough as it is, let alone four mental illnesses. But that is my reality, my life, the hand that I have been dealt. Those four statements above represent each illness, Borderline Personality Disorder, Purely Obsessive OCD, Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. All of which I am on medications for.
You may or may not remember when I wrote 5 Things I Want My Son To Know About Mental Illness, a little over a year ago. When it comes to mental illnesses, I am a staunch advocate for breaking the stigma that still surrounds them to this very day. It's sad that a lot of people out there are either scared of us, or think that we're totally insane. My son will inevitably find out about my mental illnesses one day, and there are a few more things I want him to know about having them, should he ever receive a diagnosis.
Be Proud Of Who You Are
Don't ever compromise yourself for the sake of somebody else. Be who you are, who you are meant to be. Be proud of yourself, be proud of your accomplishments, whatever they may be. You are a beautiful, unique and wonderful person. Hold onto that. Remember that.
Taking Medications Doesn't Make You Weak
Taking medications for a mental illness does not, I repeat, does not make you weak. If anything, it shows your strength, and that you are willing to do whatever it takes to put yourself on the path to recovery.
You're Not Broken
Although it may feel like it during the dark times, you are not a broken human being. You are fantastic, amazing, and incredible. Though it may not seem like it, and you may find it hard to believe right now, every person has something that makes them beautiful. You are a human being, a living and breathing entity.
Keep Yourself Distracted
Distractions are an important part of managing any illness. By picking up a hobby, giving over your time to play a sport or something similar, you are giving less power to the illness, less time to think about it, and more time to focus on yourself and building a life you've always wanted.
Your Feelings Are Valid
Don't ever think that just because you have a mental illness, that that makes your feelings about things any less valid. Again I will reiterate, you are just like any other person on this great big blue bouncing ball. We're one in the same with each other.